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12月10日 那一场雪今天又到北京出差了。下飞机的时候,天上飘起了雪花,这好像是今年冬天北京的第一场雪。看着窗外的雪花,便想起有一年元旦的时候,只身坐了一夜火车跑到北京,第二天便下起了鹅毛大雪。那一场雪,据说是当年北京的首场大雪。硕大的京城瞬间银装素裹,去长城的公路也因为冰冻而无法通车。好不容易改坐火车赶到八达岭,登上向往已久的长城,满眼尽是水墨画卷!
那一场雪带着很多记忆,陪伴着在寒冷的日子里又去北方的我…… 1月30日 Lonely but not alone生日那天,上海的天空飘起了雪花。彼时彼刻,我却独自身处异乡。听说很多地方都下大雪,唯独这边异常晴朗。
一个人在外,一个人在餐厅吃饭,一个人漫步在寒冷的大街上,一个人回酒店看电视睡觉……
突然觉得漫漫长夜如此寂寞如此孤单,没有熟悉的事物,也没有人说话。
幸好先后收到友人的祝福和关怀,心中一阵感动。
明早又要收拾行囊去到另一个陌生的城市,此时此刻归家之心切早已胜过陌生之新鲜。
可是,独行侠生活才刚刚开始……
11月1日 路遇美女G昨日上班路上,巧遇n久没见的美女G。
美女G乃杭州人士,自幼承祖传家业,各有沪杭房产n处,且皆位于闹中取静之黄金地段。平日只须收取房租,此生便衣食无忧。问她近况如何,答曰唯男女问题始终为之困扰。一般的看不上,老外不稳定,太优秀的抓不住……总之一个字,难!
她富有,所以不需要做个cheap的女人去找个富老头积攒她的下半生;
她富有,所以不愿意跟一个平凡的男人聊度此生;
她富有,却仍在摸索如何成为优秀男人的心仪之人;
她富有,却还不知道自己到底要什么样的幸福。
很多时候,很多事,起点便是终点。你以为你跑得很远,其实只是画了个圆。 8月4日 Complicated Friday中午的时候,同事说楼上有人跳楼自杀,楼下布满了警车和救火车,还有围观的群众。也许是听过
太多跳楼自杀的案例,也没觉得惊奇。半信半疑中跑去一个教室的窗口想看个究竟。人是没
看到,却看到正巧飘落在外窗台上的一页纸,上面赫然印有“遗书”二字。往往自杀案件的背后总
有一个不为人知的秘密,于是好奇地去读那份所谓的遗书,原来是个股市的受害者。故事不够精彩
,材料不够新颖,于是作罢,继续工作。等我出去觅食的时候,楼下已恢复了正常。后来听说那个
人被劝退了,没有发生命案。
事后对于自己表现的平静感到恐惧。难道对于一个生命的去留就如此漠然吗?是因为我不认识他,
还是因为最终没有发生?闹剧也罢,真戏也好,有多少人是因为对生命的怜惜而去关注他?而他自
己又是如此轻视生命。更可悲的是,是什么原因竟要让一个脆弱的人用生命作为代价去寻求所谓的
公正呢?
下午的时候,同事说我们新来的日本员工被炒鱿鱼了。有点可惜,才接触不久就要说再见。他很沮
丧……这个时候我们又能说什么呢?失业对于失去生命来说真得不算什么,前者发生了,后者没有
发生,谁又能说两者造成的影响孰轻孰重呢?生命本来就很脆弱,却还要用来面对无处不有的艰难
和折磨……
总算这一天没在悲哀中度过,偶然间得知昔日同窗嫁为人妇,他也是我们同届的附中人。她说那个
传说的求婚是真的。真的,就像电视拍得一样。他从法国回来,她去机场接他。每个出来的人都给
她送上一朵玫瑰,最后他出现了,给她送上一枚戒指。原来他把她的照片打印了数份,分发给其他
乘客……相信每个女孩子这一刻都会感动吧!
不要说我大惊小怪,不要说这种事情无时不发生在世界的某个角落,那只会让原本苍白的生命变得
更为麻木。呵呵,世界有时候就是那么美妙,把你我撮合在同一个时空!虽然生命脆弱,生活艰难
,但是幸福可以追求——live life to the fullest!
7月10日 A Rainy Night昨夜的一场大雨把我从梦中惊醒,一瞬间睡意全无。
窗外的雨点夹杂着雷鸣像石头砸下来一样,一阵又一阵。
下意识地蜷缩起身子,盖好被子,心头掠过一丝无名的恐惧。
附:诗经 风雨
风雨凄凄,鸡鸣喈喈。既见君子,云胡不夷。
风雨潇潇,鸡鸣胶胶。既见君子,云胡不廖。
风雨如晦,鸡鸣不已,既见君子,云胡不喜?
Yes, he's coming back, FINALLY.
Longer than we've expected.
I didn't mean to keep it a secret.
Yet there's a lot not done and to be done.
Allow me here to keep calm and cool.
I'd love to share the happiness with you when it comes.
9月8日 People come, people go.September tends to be the season of mobility.
Many expats are relocated and many families migrate.
Throughout the lifetime, we see people come and people go. However,
How many of them will stop by and be noticed? ...
How many of them will converse and become intimate? ...
And eventually who is willing to adjust the pace and accompany you along the way? ...
We always try hard to seek things far and apart but forget to cherish the close until they slip away.
Actually, if you hold it attentively, it will always be in your hand.
8月30日 Blog and more小谢说我很久没写blog了。是吗?20天算久吗?不想让这东西成为一种负担,所以想写就写不想写就不写。有时候搞不懂这东西究竟是写给自己看的还是写给别人看的,所以每每打开页面又不知该如何下笔。生活是需要记录的,有的人把它刻在盘上,有的人把它写在纸上,更多的人把它藏在心里。殊途同归吧,只是为了让自己知道还有些值得回忆的。一个没有回忆的人是悲哀的,就像一个没有喜怒哀乐的人一样。一直以为自己是个情绪稳定的人,原来也可以不是这样的……就好像一直以为生活是平淡的,但也可以不是这样的。 8月8日 Stranger In XuzhouI thought I could bear the loneliness but I might be wrong. It was the first time that I was alone in a foreign city, traveling alone and living alone. When the night was coming, the feeling became stronger and stronger. At that time, an sms or a call from a friend would be a great relief as it made me feel to be around. I wonder if it will drive me crazy if I have to live in a foreign place for long.
P.S. Please excuse my inaccuracy. People were confused by "foreign city". Actually I didn't go abroad but went to a strange city in China.
You are not alone
For I am here with you Though you're far away I am here to stay For you are not alone I am here with you Though we're far apart You're always in my heart And you are not alone ---MJ
6月9日 Regret or Not已经跟n个人讲过我为什么选择华师大对外汉语系的故事,讲的时候始终觉得自己的选择是英明的。因为我们系的录取分总是与复旦的最低录取分相近,华师大很保险,复旦要搏一搏。而我一直记得当年若是填复旦就差1分,所以我一直不后悔,心里很平静。6年后的今天,突然得知当年复旦的分数线比我的分数低1分,而不是我一直以为的高1分,心中竟产生一丝郁闷……不知也罢!
Anyway, I am not regretful for that. You may ask what if I went to Fudan? There is no what if in the world. Just do what you are doing and enjoy it. And you will find fun as well.
To Sherry, you are one of the reasons that I don't feel regretful :) 11月16日 Simple but impressive前两天看电视,偶尔的几个片断,感动得热泪盈眶。
整个早上,小女孩一直在忙碌。那个男人说:“花儿,别做了。出去玩会儿吧!” 小女孩缓缓地站起身,又缓缓地看了看四周,然后缓缓地问:“叔叔,你是在跟我说话吗?” 得到肯定后,她立刻露出欣喜的笑容,飞似得跑出去,只为跟她的爷爷说叔叔跟她说话了。
很多时候,很简单的东西,就可以触动你心灵的深处。
不禁想起数月前的一次天目之行。由于我们要早起上山,前一天晚上就跟小店老板打好招呼,让他们按时准备早饭。山里的清晨很静,只有几只鸡在叫。招呼我们的是个女孩子,十几岁的模样,长得很干净。她说她去叫人,然后让我们在前院稍坐片刻。显然厨房还没有开始工作,也没有其他的客人。她并没有跟我们说更多的话,只是径自开始打扫院子。她扫得很虔诚,就好像可以一直这样扫下去。我一直看着那个女孩子,许久许久。仿佛时间就定格在那一刻……
6月25日 Bund 18 & moreToday, Bund 18 is a sign of fashion and luxury. Knowns as Macquarie Bank Tower since 1923, this historical architecture has been renovated to a commercial function. On the 6th floor, it is the best French restuarant---Sens & Bund, operated by Michelin 3-star chefs. On the 7th, it's Bar Rouge, THE place for party animals of the city, not me. Sometimes my friends ask me why I don't often go parties or saloon. I am not sure if I should say no. Least, I am not kinda party animal just as I don't like singing in Karaokay. Parties might be too crazy for me and I prefer to be left quietly sometimes even alone. But meanwhile, a voice often wispers --- go for fun with your people, excitement will bring you up. Should I make a change? As I remember, years ago a friend of mine said that I tened to hide my passion and stay cool. She tried to change me throughout 3 years, but failed. I was not told until she released the secret on graduation day. I asked if she felt sad. Surprisingly, she said she was happy that I am still the one she knows. And I am happy to have such a friend. Man In The Mirror MJ I'm Gonna Make A Change, 6月20日 Life is your own.Again and again, I am complaining that life is not colorful enough. Who are to blame? Myself? Who Moved My Cheese tells us that one shall be ready for changes at anytime. If you could make a move before you smell the change, you will have a chance to win. If you could make a right move before you smell it, you will win the bet. But the fact is there're only a few with both vision and courage. So, be brave! If you get bored, change yourself! Don't assume that other people will change your life. It is your own and it could only be changed by yourself. Whatever your past is, whatever your current is, be brave to your future! Again, life is your own and you can make it! |
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